Перевод песни Atreyu - Slow Burn

It begins
With a dark glowing ember,
Something black
Burning its way out of me,
Searing the flesh,
Pain is the only thing I feel,
Scars all I see,
Oh, no, the fires burning my insides again…
What can I do to silence my desire tonight?
Flames consuming reason leaving
Only ashes left,
You will catch me
Regretting my decision,
I can't keep telling myself what I want to hear,
I can't just close my eyes!

[Chorus]
I know that it's killing me,
And it's poisoning the best in me..
What I see I don't want to believe,
So let me tell you more, tell you more,
About the lies I lead…

That is how
I chose to douse the flames in gasoline,
Broken teeth replace
The blackout memories in my head,
Wreckage from the past that haunts me, shakes me to the bone,
I know it's over, but I can't go home tonight,
But after this I feel as empty as before,
Feel the pain
And yet I'm still begging for more,
Masochistic nihilistic urging backward thought,
My life's a mess and
I can't find a way to fix it,
I can't keep telling myself what I want to hear,
I can't just close my eyes!

[Chorus]

Calling, calling out
The darkest reaches of my soul
Are riddled with self doubt,
Crawling, crawling out,
My will to fight will more than suffice
When others would lay down.
It's only as dark as you make it

[Chorus]